Here’s a little clip from the show I did this summer.  I love this music and everything about the show.

Yesterday was my birthday.

I had a great day.  With that day, I had some thoughts.
My life is very different than it was a year ago.  I’m on the road, now…doing things I love.  I don’t always share everything like I used to, and that’s okay.
Things that are meant to be shared will be shared, and some things aren’t ready yet, or are too personal, or too sacred.  All in good time.  All in God’s time.

Some resolutions I want to struggle with:

1. Keep my online presence clean.

I don’t mean not doing “dirty” things.  I mean that I only want to post things that are thought-through, thought-out, ready to be said, and meaningful.
I’m done with political memes.  Even seeing them (on BOTH sides) makes me sick at this point.  You cannot take complex, multi-layered ideas and reduce them down into a two phrase text imposed over a picture of some political figure making a face.  It further cheapens this country.  I think Facebook has made it all the worse.  People are ignorant of the real issues and only relying on memes and hearsay to determine what they believe.  Not good.  I don’t want to be this way.

2.  Do something meaningful everyday.

Think a new thought.  Build on; add to it.  Create something.  Try to further my career.  Work on my body.  Clean my mind.  Write.  Pray.  Sing.  Speak good things to people.  These are all meaningful and don’t require an overabundance of commitment.

3. Find new ways to connect, and new ways to disconnect.

Invest in people, and not in technology.  Technology needs to be a means to connect with people, not a way to throw pearls before swine.  Look up from my phone.  Look people in the eye.

4.  Be okay with how things are.

Live in the moment while maintaining my morals and standards.  Every day, every moment is a gift from God.  Learn to treat all moments with respect: even nasty ones.  Don’t wish we had done better.  Live fully with the choices we’ve made.

5.  Work on the craft.

So much of acting is observing, imprinting, recreating.  I need to spend more free time with working on my art.  I need to be always working on a monologue.  Always ready for auditions.  Always trying to find new ways to jump in.  This is what my life is missing.  I could be on a roll…let’s go!

These are just some thoughts.  I’m sure I’ll add to it.  I love lists, don’t you?

I’m officially giving myself permission and understanding to not be 100%.

I’ve barely cried, on this 4th and final grandparent funeral. I think I’ve cried twice in the whole week plus that it’s been, now. I’m dealing with it, somehow. Too much family stuff to deal with; it complicates things and gets in the way of the actual grieving for the person who has died. I’m trying to be better. I’m trying…

But I’m not thinking clearly. I’m tired. My body hurts and isn’t responding.

I’m going on tour in a month. I need to lose at least 5 lbs. I need my body to work. I need to be well.
I’m not there yet.