April 22, 2013

  • Save The Best For Last

    I remember the cutting bitter tears of my first broken heart...I was 15.  
    He kissed me!  I loved him!  Then he was gone.
    This song nursed me through those times.  I used to listen to "Love Songs at Night" on radio.  I had a dear guy friend who would call in and dedicate songs to me.  So precious.  We'd go up to the dance studio and I'd dance out all my heartache.  They were sweet days.  
    I have had many heart breaks since then.  They seem to pile up, one on top of the other.  I feel sorry for myself.
    But then I think...my husband!  If he's not with me, surely something in his heart is aching, too.  He is missing me as I'm missing him.  I'm sure he's hurting, too.  
    Let's find each other, soon?  Please save the best for last.  <3

April 21, 2013

  • Feeling minty

    I went to visit @Jenny_Wren 's church today...but unfortunately she didn't make it!  It was awkward because people asked me who invited me to the church...I had to reply I didn't know her real name.  Umm...they probably think I'm a weirdo with an imaginary friend.  So I sat alone and thoroughly enjoyed it.  Great church.  I might show up more over the summer!  

    I got to wear my new impulse buy dress.  LOVE it.  I'm obsessed with this color right now!
    I have a video idea stirring around in my head.  
    Today I'm thankful for:  Churches that don't sell out.
    Today is awesome so far because: I wore my new mint dress!
    I'm looking forward to:  Seeing my family tonight at dinner.
    Today's challenges:  Eating, working out, taking a decent nap, getting some reading in.
    Person, place, or thing of comfort today:  Jesus, Jesus, ever sweet Jesus.  
    Person, place, or thing I can help today:  My family...be a good witness.
    One helpful word, idea, phrase, or quote to inspire me today:  "Thou my best thought, by day or by night.  Waking or sleeping, thy presence my light".


April 20, 2013

  • Nightcometh's Daybook

    Trying something new.  I am going to try to start doing this everyday to help with my attitude.  Feel free to join. 

    Today I'm thankful for:  
    Today is awesome so far because: 
    I'm looking forward to:
    Today's challenges:
    Person, place, or thing of comfort today:
    Person, place, or thing I can help today:
    One helpful word, idea, phrase, or quote to inspire me today:
    Saturday, April 20, 2013
    Today I'm thankful for:  My beautiful hair
    Today is awesome so far because: The sun is shining!  It rose today and Spring is upon us!
    I'm looking forward to:  Getting my hair done today.
    Today's challenges:  Eating, as always.  Fighting off my negative thoughts, cleaning, finding a church to visit tomorrow.
    Person, place, or thing of comfort today:  My non-fat mocha.
    Person, place, or thing I can help today:  I'm praying for my future husband.
    One helpful word, idea, phrase, or quote to inspire me today:  "Sunshine can peep through a wee hole" - Mr. Lundy, Brigadoon

  • Crazy dream

    My dream last night:

    I was sifting through dating different guys (kind of what consumes a lot of my thoughts right now).
    Then I ran into a guy from college.  He was short, fat, Mr. Popular talented guy who was also Mr. Spiritual guy.  Really nice, but also was the president of the service organization (clique) that voted to let everyone else in but me for some undisclosed reason.  Yep.
    Anyway, I dreamt that I was actually married to him but had forgotten.  We even had a daughter together, and I'd forgotten.  I remember feeling this awful sense of guilt...but also kind of strange being attracted to him and happy that I was married to him all along.  I just felt guilty for forgetting them.
    So there ya go...weird dream to end a horribly emotional week of things exploding and relationship turmoil.  Any wanna-be dream interpreters, go for it.  Psychology of dreams is fascinating. 

April 17, 2013

  • Swan Dive

    When he finally arrived, she was tired of waiting.  

    "Edward!" she exclaimed, not trying to hide the indigence in her voice.  "Where have you been?  I've grown so tired of waiting.  I don't think I can bear the years I've spent in sadness."
    His eyes beheld her tears, and he answered with trembling honestly.
    "It was very far.  I ran the whole way, and I didn't know what you looked like.  
    But my heart did."

  • Rainy Mood

    I love rain so very much...it helps me sleep.  I have been using this site since it was Baby To Sleep, made by some parents of a fussy infant to help him sleep at night.  Eventually it became this. If you love rain like me, give it a try. 

      

  • Sore muscles (I joked on twitter that I'm more sore than a liberal who can't take my guns).  That combined with a weird heat wave (last week I wore a coat), and when I realized my A/C was set on 84...not in a good mood today.  I'm not sure what it is about being sore that makes me so miserable!  I'm a pretty spry, energetic person, but when I'm sore I try to be spry and I feel like ever way I turn I'm moving through pudding.  I'm slow.  I waddle.  I hurt.  I complain.  There ya go.

    So I went to the gym, anyway.  I only did 10 minutes on the ellitpical and some crunches, Russian twists with a weight, and some legups.  Not much...but my muscles need a break, right?  Last night I did power yoga class for an hour, then 30 minutes of elliptical. This is my 4th day straight working out.  I think I have my own permission to take an easy day.
    (Can you tell I'm drive by guilt sometimes?)
    I'm going to try to relax right now.  Still need some lavender essential oils. 

April 16, 2013

  • What's your type?

    I was just admiring the strikingly handsome, intelligent, and well-dressed (and single!) @GreekPhysique . We got into a conversation about the type of girl he likes, as far as physicality goes.  He said he was afraid of posting about the body type he's most attracted to, but was worried it would offend someone.  

    Which got me thinking...why is preference offensive to people?  Why is saying that you like a girl who is thin considered snobbish, but saying you like a girl who is plump considered...well, "out there".  Some consider it racist to state that you prefer to date one race over another.  Some are worried that their preference to date someone with no kids and hasn't been married is "shallow".  
    Certainly we can see that all preferences for the opposite sex are affected by many things.  Upbringing is certainly one of them.  There is a sphere of acceptable preference, then there are deviant desires which go outside the sphere of what is okay to chase after.  Certainly it's okay to want someone with blue eyes, and its fine to go after that.  It's not okay to want someone under age 15 if you are 34.  You might want it, and you can't help desiring that, but indulging those desires is wrong.  We CAN help our minds and what we think about and long after.  We are not captive to our thoughts.  
    So this brings me to the point, and a few questions:
    1. What is your type?  
    2. Why do you think this is?
    3. If you are too embarrassed to admit some of the things you are attracted to, why do you think that is?
    I think we can learn much about ourselves from looking at our desires.  
    Discuss :)  

April 12, 2013

  • Here's a bedtime question:  Do romantics experience faith differently than scientific/practical minds?  Is one more correct and trustworthy?

April 10, 2013

  • Plus size dating

    Never say that Facebook isn't helpful. I'll update more, after I finish this gallon of ice cream an get off the phone with Jenny Craig and Eharmony.

    :-/